I often ask why for such a long time now have I not been able to find suitable people. Throughout my teens and twenties I scored quite well with a fair abundance of meaningful connections. Yet I seemed to outgrow these connections quickly. There were never any real candidates for suitable partnership either professionally or personally.

What do I mean by suitable? Well, for starters I suppose I mean those who bring something to the party, something that I actually need beyond the mundane. But that rarely happens. Nobody I know has anything I need. And anyway most of them are so zoned in on their own needs they don’t give a toss about mine. You are invariably only the instrument of others.

And I don’t mean to imply that I was the great shakes. I was no better than anyone else at the relationship game and was never the right stuff for those involved with me either. It is just that the others were more prepared than I was to go with the non-compatibility.

So my point is: where the hell were the compatible ones? You’d think that out of the thousands I’ve met there would’ve been be a greater number of potential candidates. But even among a small handful of possibles it is doubtful if there was even a single one who would have worked out.